I virtually believed that the fixed texts and compliments meant one thing, that I meant one thing. I virtually thought that you simply had been critical if you advised me how a lot you favored me and the way you simply weren’t prepared for a relationship proper now. I virtually purchased into the paper-thin lies and excuses that you simply spit out everytime you had been too busy to hang around with me, if you had been secretly selecting another person. I virtually believed that you simply had been being sincere with me as a result of there was by no means a second the place I used to be dishonest with you.
I virtually believed that I might make you cheerful, that I used to be what you needed, that I used to be able to providing you with every little thing that you simply craved in one other particular person. I virtually believed that we might have been joyful collectively, that we might have match one another completely, that our flaws would align in all the correct methods and our strengths would construct one another up. I virtually believed that we made sense collectively, that our chemistry was off-the-charts, that there was no doable option to pull us aside.
I virtually trusted you with my coronary heart. Virtually thought that you’d be capable to shield it, to deal with it with light arms because you knew how a lot I’d been by previously – and also you’d been by the identical. I virtually thought that you simply had been the one who was meant to stick with me for the lengthy haul, that we had been going to carve out our personal little love story, defy the percentages and turn out to be that annoying couple that also beloved one another even years after the thrill ought to have worn off.
I virtually thought that your combined alerts had been indicators that you simply had been scared, that you simply needed me too however had been afraid of issues turning out poorly. I virtually believed that the one motive you hesitated was since you had been as damaged as me, as a result of we each had demons we wanted to beat earlier than committing to one another. I virtually thought that we had been shifting ahead, slowly, however nonetheless shifting, by no means stopping, rising nearer and nearer by the day.
I virtually believed that your emotions had been as sturdy as my very own. That you simply had been critical about desirous to see the place our relationship would lead. That your coronary heart beat as quick as mine after I stepped into the room and that you simply couldn’t get me off your thoughts the way in which that you simply by no means left mine. I virtually believed that we had been on the identical web page, that we needed the identical finish aim – however in fact I believed that since you satisfied me to.
In the long run, I virtually believed that it was my fault for trusting you, for falling so laborious for you, for permitting myself to get connected to you – despite the fact that you strung me alongside, figuring out how sturdy my emotions had been for you. I virtually blamed myself for shedding you, virtually thought that this was the worst heartbreak of my life, but it surely seems that you simply had been solely saying what you thought I needed to listen to. You had been solely giving me a part of your coronary heart after I needed the entire thing. You had been solely virtually what I needed, and never what I truly wanted.
